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Post by bjorna on Mar 16, 2017 16:28:45 GMT
I had a similar visual experience. It wasn't snow, perse. Rather, it was sparks falling from the ceiling where there was no light bulb for it to possibly be sparking out of. Now, I know sometimes people see dots if they've been looking at a light, then look away. People can also see spots with a blood pressure change. But I've experienced both and this was NOT The same thing. I remember being very stressed that day and when I saw it I freaked out.
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Post by Jan. on Mar 16, 2017 16:31:57 GMT
Experiencing more zoned out times lately, and raging at a lot of things.
This triggered an explosive gangr which for the first time I could feel coming on, so I pulled my car over into the nearest car park and began yanking upon my ponytail and beard, until a scream then a growl came.
Felt myself slipping away and the bear come in, felt my eyes turn black and saw the old man all father standing in front of me. Got the instruction to roar and be as you are.
Exhausted afterwards.
Way land do you feel your thyroid start to swell as you enter the gangr state, what of changing eye colour.
Can anyone recommend a good way to begin my relationship with Odin again having walked away from him for over ten years. Feels like he has found me again
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Post by bjorna on Mar 16, 2017 16:42:31 GMT
For restarting the relationship with Odin, here are some things that help me when I've accidentally drifted from my spiritual life. For one, I write down or at least analyze my dreams, leading me to realize Odin was calling me back all along. Sometimes, though, he will seem to disappear but that is just to teach Independence. He doesn't coddle us. Sometimes I get myself in an Odinic mindspace by reading, going into dusty libraries, seeking wisdom, writing songs and poems, and working out.
On the topic of zoning out: I have started to do it more and more. One minute I'll be focused and in the moment, next moment I'm not. This is scary when I'm driving or at work. People will catch me zoning out and say,"what are you thinking about?" That snaps me out of it but I can't remember for the life of me what I was thinking.
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Post by Jan on Mar 16, 2017 19:47:03 GMT
I can close my eyes and spirit travel to the forest before Asgard where I meet mind and memory Odins Ravens easily in meditation, however, I will not go past the first gate before bifrost to stand before Heimdall as Odin can come to me. I will not grovel in front of him or his people. I am strongly independent.
Today's gangr came out in a twenty minute rush which has left me exhausted, brought on by hatred and rage towards one who has wronged me. He will get his comeuppance when it is right to bring it upon him.
I bare grudges for a long long time, years even.
Find nothing in the runes as I prefer to go to nature itself for answers, galdr is the same, roaring, snarling and other vocalisations work for me. But that is just it they work for me and me alone.
Feel very angry confrontational and wanting to rage again as I write this.
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Post by bjorna on Mar 16, 2017 21:15:23 GMT
What enraged you? You don't have to tell if you don't want, but Sometimes venting feels good.
I feel ya on the grudges thing. I hold grudges very long, probably because even the smallest slight towards me feels to me like a catastrophe and I have to have revenge. That might make me unhealthy mentally, I'm not sure. So-called normal people would say i need to learn to let tgings go. But my long lasting grudges have also led to some good things, like me not stopping until some jerk is set straight.
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Post by Jan on Mar 18, 2017 7:33:50 GMT
Some martial arts instructor ripping students off and taking credit for getting me to black belt when he did fuck all to help me as it was his other coach who trained me. Oh I hold grudges for years and I get revenge in rather nasty ways. Like you Bjorna the slightest thing can get me raging.
Part of the berserk nature may be
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Post by bjorna on Mar 18, 2017 21:08:00 GMT
I'd be enraged too! What a rip off and a poser! We have some people like that here in my town too. A music promoter who runs off with bands' money and is a total creeper. It's a shame people can't enjoy something like martial varts or music without those scenes being riddled with assholes. Temperamental berserkers or not, when we're angered by people like him we are completely justified.
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Post by bjorna on Mar 18, 2017 21:16:43 GMT
Sometimes we do overreact but sometimes I think we are Odin's answer to all the sheep who under-react and are too scared of standing out to ever show anger, even the healthy kind. People in high school always made fun of me because things made me angry and bothered me when everybody else just thought they were no big deal. But at least someone stood up to those who needed to be stood up to. I have to remind myself, we're like this for a reason.
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Post by Marie on May 20, 2017 22:34:28 GMT
A few years ago, I made a contract with Woden. This week, I am in negotiations again. I had let it lapse, once I had finished what I had agreed to. For the past year, it really has been quiet. But I reached out to him again, and of course he was right there. So once again I will be working in his service, no it is not an easy path, but life is not an easy path.
Have any of you "made contracts"?
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Post by arngrim on May 30, 2017 14:30:41 GMT
Personally, no. I am not familiar with each of his aspects so I will try to answer it from my perspective as best I can. I would say, between us, there is a mutual understanding, a mutual benefit or agreement. While I have gone deepest with Odin, I do honor as many as I can. The gifts that were given to me are just that - gifts. Right now our interests lie together. He has seen my future and decided it worthy enough to reach out to me at a very young age, was patient enough to wait until I found him again. I respect that. However, he does know that if the end of the agreement on that end were not to be met, I would seek the paths of the others and learned what I could from them. Blessed with curiosity, it would be foolish to expect or demand mutual exclusivity. All in all, when that end comes, I will be shoulder to shoulder with them all regardless. Whoever sets the worthiest trials and challenges before me to prepare my self for that end will earn my respect and devoted fervor. I hope this helps.
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Post by Marie on Jun 7, 2017 12:22:09 GMT
Thank you arngrim for your response. That does help. I have my anniversary of my personal Initiation coming up and I am seeking for the next step in my life and study.
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Post by arngrim on Jun 15, 2017 2:25:03 GMT
Please keep us updated on that, I want to say it wouldn't be unnatural considering his aspects of it. I guess the deal would really depend on how you felt about it, if it was more like an oath than a contract, etc.
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Post by Wayland_S on Jun 16, 2017 7:17:26 GMT
"Way land do you feel your thyroid start to swell as you enter the gangr state, what of changing eye colour.
Can anyone recommend a good way to begin my relationship with Odin again having walked away from him for over ten years. Feels like he has found me again"
Sorry my reply is so belated. My life recently went to hel, and it has taken me some time to rebuild.
Thyroid? Never. Eye color changes? Yes. Sometimes to grey or green from blue. In the very deepest gangrs, white. Never figured out how this happens.
Restarting a relationship with Odin? Just do it. If there is a price he wants, he will make it known. One way or another.
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Post by bjorna on Jun 19, 2017 0:02:04 GMT
Heilsa all, Sorry for my absence. I don't people well either. But I am so glad there are still posts here. I had my initiation. My friend Carrie is an ordeal master without even claiming the title. She was able to scare the daylights out of me which sent my adrenaline through the roof. Tough, tough lady. We used pain and fear to make me break through.
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Post by bjorna on Jun 19, 2017 4:33:54 GMT
I don't know about the thyroid. What I have to deal with is my stomach. Especially yesterday.
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