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Anxiety
Jan 19, 2017 18:18:34 GMT
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Post by bjorna on Jan 19, 2017 18:18:34 GMT
Hi folks. I feel the need to rant. I thought I was better at covering up my moods and anxiousness at work but I was just told that I'm not. Apparently I always appear anxious and it makes people nervous. I feel I have no control over this. After all, I had thought I was doing better. I was told that I freaked out about things I don't even remember freaking out about. How can I fix it if I don't always realize I'm doing it.also when I get constructive criticism about my anxiety it makes my anxiety worse.it's a vicious cycle. I probably sound whiny but I wish I was at home right now so I could let out what I'm feeling. I'm about to explode. I wish I could hibernate and watch TV with my fiance until I ve learned how to act around people.
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Post by Jan Crate. on Jan 19, 2017 19:10:21 GMT
Hmm,
This is a story I keep hearing on a regular basis. Firstly you are different from the herd. Odin chose you as his berserker, he gave you this special gift. We are not like them, we feel things more strongly, we laugh, cry and love etc strongly and we look after our people and loved ones.
Go out into the country and scream roar and be at one with the bear. Pray to it ask its advice.
You are berserker not sheep be proud.
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Anxiety
Jan 19, 2017 19:23:59 GMT
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Post by bjorna on Jan 19, 2017 19:23:59 GMT
thank you. I know I should be proud of who I am but it's hard when it threatens my ability to keep my job. I'm getting married in June and trying to help my family so I need the money. But I'm still glad that I feel things so strongly. I wouldn't trade the good emotions for anything. I sometimes wonder if I should even be around non-berserks. Maybe me and the fiance should try to "live off the land." We've joked about it before but maybe we really should. On a lighter note there's a great book about supporting yourself without a job, it's called Possum Living.
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Post by Friedrich on Oct 27, 2017 9:30:53 GMT
Bjorna, It could be a case of simple reflection. YOU KNOW much better than others how YOU FEEL. Who cares about them? They might be anxious from you! You are a berserker goddammit. I would just leave it. They say you "appear" anxious, I feel like they are reflecting their own anxiety onto you, so you become part of their herd of sheep. That it looks like it is working, that let this happen. I usually just imagine that their worries and anxiety and nervousness from their words comes into your ears and you energetically feed (produce wod) on it by sending it to your center. It is an interesting feeling, which gives you a strong feeling of darkness and power, I strongly recommend it. But be careful to control and contain the wod generated in this matter, try not to waste it. Anyway my opinion the matter, take it or leave it.
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Post by eversor on Nov 30, 2017 7:29:53 GMT
You need to find that which gives you solace. I find that our mind naturally falls to whatever this is when exhausted. For example when I destroy myself at the gym my mind is often drawn to certain things naturally. They are my solace. Find that and during times of stress you may be able to draw strength from that special place, that reserve of your solace.
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Anxiety
Dec 4, 2017 20:44:57 GMT
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Post by barenkrieger on Dec 4, 2017 20:44:57 GMT
Thank you both for the advice. My solace is writing stories. I find that I think about it in order to calm down but then people fuss about me thinking about the wrong things. I'm done. Can't please everybody. Not even gonna try. As long as I'm not hurting anyone who cares if my anxiousness or coping techniques bother them.
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Anxiety
Dec 5, 2017 8:39:29 GMT
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Post by eversor on Dec 5, 2017 8:39:29 GMT
Thank you both for the advice. My solace is writing stories. I find that I think about it in order to calm down but then people fuss about me thinking about the wrong things. I'm done. Can't please everybody. Not even gonna try. As long as I'm not hurting anyone who cares if my anxiousness or coping techniques bother them. Many modern people have issues with coping. Modern man is sheltered. Writing is very beneficial, in fact if you write by hand to do so it will literally rewire your brain. Might be worth a shot for you on your endeavor.
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Anxiety
Dec 5, 2017 16:49:52 GMT
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Post by barenkrieger on Dec 5, 2017 16:49:52 GMT
Interesting. I didn't know writing by hand could rewire my brain. Could I use that to actually make myself think more posirively?
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Anxiety
Dec 10, 2017 11:51:11 GMT
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Post by lychenn on Dec 10, 2017 11:51:11 GMT
I agree, writing by hand has a different effect on you. Same with reading, I have found, a physical book draws me into it's world in a different way than a screen. Not saying both aren't beneficial, for they most definitely are. The internet has helped in my growth beyond measure, I just balance it with book and paper time. I can feel the lights of screens effecting my eyes and after some time my brain. Balance in everything. As far as thinking positively... I have struggled with this perspective for some time now and it just doesn't work for me. In the words of Ragnar Lothbrok " who said you should be happy?" I enjoy lighter feelings just as much as anybody else, we all here have them more intensely, but I have come to appreciate the dark feelings equally. They teach us. Also, for me, I reclaimed my power when I stopped looking at myself through the eyes of others. These thoughts still try to creep back in from time to time but I live for myself and what makes me proud of me. I want for the acceptance of others, like a lone Wolf looking for a pack to call it's own. But a lone Wolf I am and this fact may be why I can push others from my mind, they have no hold on me that they used to. Thus I have been drawn here to find others of like kind. Just be yourself. Give yourself the freedom to be who you are. And you may be intuiting the feelings of others. This is a power I've only started to truly grasp, the power of empathy. That may not your experience but for me, when feelings I cannot explain come, instead of looking at myself and why I feel that way I look to people I am around, trying to find the source of the energy/emotions. Even alone I'll have strange emotions all of a sudden, I try to center myself and 'see' from where it is coming. Sometimes it's the weather! Long post but I wanted you to know you aren't in anyway responsible for what those around feel in your presence, it is in their own minds. Your power may make them anxious, I know I make a lot of people feel fearful things but that is for them to deal with. You are powerful, you are chosen by Odin. Stand in your awesomeness.
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Post by barenkrieger on Dec 14, 2017 3:44:45 GMT
Lychenn, what you said was beautiful. I couldn't have worded it any better.
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Post by lychenn on Dec 14, 2017 9:59:42 GMT
Thank you. I hope it is helpful.
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